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How confusing

There's few things more confusing than hearing from someone you thought you'd never hear from again and hearing things from them that you always wanted to hear when you knew them but didn't. It makes you regret every choice you've made since then....I'm not going to get into it but suffice to say that I found out something tonight that probably would have changed everything if I had known at the time. But...we can't go back or change the choices we've made. What has been done is done. It makes me sad. Very sad.

I wish things weren't so confusing. I wish that I could feel love. I wish that I didn't second guess myself so much. I wish I was a better girlfriend both then and now.

But wishes don't come true.
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Tiramisu Hartman 1999-2005

Tonight was a horrible night. Tira, my dog, got loose and ran into the highway where she was hit by a woodtruck. We tried to save her but there was nothing we could do. The vet gave her some pain medicine so she wouldn't suffer and dad stayed up with her until the end. I couldn't stay at the vet's because I couldn't stand to hear her crying anymore. Dad said that right before she died she wagged her tail. She was glad to have him there with her. He blames himself but he shouldn't; she died chasing rabbits like she always loved to do. We'll miss her but blaming ourselves won't bring her back. Now she's in heaven with god and all of her friends who died before her where there are no more woodtrucks and no snow to bother her anymore.

I haven't cried so much in a long time. It feels like a nightmare and that when I wake up she'll be there eating out of the trash again. But I know she won't. I'll remember the good times with her but right now it still hurts. It's going to take a while for the pain to dull but I'll always remember her and know that she loved us and that she was the only real blessing I've had in a long long time.

My hand's pretty sore from where she bit me while I was trying to pull her out of traffic. I know she didn't mean to, she was scared and she let go when she realized it was me. Ma's probably making me get a tetanus shot. Then I'll have pain in my arm and in my heart.

So this goes out to TIra, the best dog a family could ever have. You left us too soon but we'll see you again over the Rainbow Bridge.
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From Jessi
APPEARANCE
I am shorter than 5'4.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
Have/I've had braces.
Wear glasses but only when reading or driving
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free. I've had it and I'd do it again if it were cheaper
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
I failed more than 1 class last year.
I've stolen something from my job.
I've been fired.
I've skipped school.

EMBARRASSMENT
I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've peed from laughing.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.



HEALTH
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've gotten stitches.
I've broken a bone.

I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.




TRAVELING
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.

I've been to Mexico.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.



EXPERIENCES
I've gotten lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.

I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.

I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
I've eaten Sushi.

I've been snowboarding.



RELATIONSHIPS
I'm single
I'm in a relationship.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've had someone cheat on me.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of commitment.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've cheated in a relationship.
I've gotten divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.



SEXUALITY
I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
I've had a crush on a teacher.

I am a cuddler.
I love to flirt.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.



HONESTY/CRIME
I am a terrible liar.
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've snuck out of my house.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.



DEATH & DYING
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.
I've planned my own suicide.
I've written a eulogy for myself.



MATERIALISM
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3 player.
I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I collect comic books.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on e-bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.



POLITICAL/SOCIAL ATTITUDES
In general, I don't like people.
I'm a feminist.
I'm very outgoing.

I listen to political music.
I'm Democratic.
I'm Republican.
I'm liberal.
I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.

I am for Bush.
I'm religious.
I dress fairly modestly.
My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."




Random
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
I curse regularly.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I've had Spam.
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.

I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest.
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1) Was 2005 a good year for you? more or less

2) What was your favorite moment of the year? the day I met Dom

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? Every second in Storyboarding or not having hot water for a month

4) Where were you when 2005 began? at home

5) Who were you with? my parents and Tira

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? probably drinkin' brews or something and working on comissions at my grandma's house

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? probably my family

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? yeah, I lost 5 pounds

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? Try harder at 3d modeling

10) Did you fall in love in 2005? Yes.

11) If yes, with who? Dom

12) If yes, do they know? yeah he does
13) Are you still in love with them? Of course

14) Do you regret it? nope

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? no

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? Yeah

17) Who are your favorite new friends? I don't have favorites

18) What was your favorite month of 2005? November

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? yeah, canada

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? four

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? no

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? no

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? Narnia or Harry Potter

24) What was your favorite song from 2005? Numa Numa

25) What was your favorite record from 2005? don't know

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? 1

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? not really

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005? yeah

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? nope, I don't do drugs

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? One, repeatedly hehe

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? yeah, I skipped class a few times

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? I can't think of one.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? yeah, I was a mean group leader

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? Aye.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005? don't want to even go there

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? eh don't have one

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? dont' want to talk about it

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be? I'd go back to picking out classes and NOT take Pianotzi's

40) What are your plans for 2006? Work on classes, work on outside stuff, and stay happy with my man
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Hail Cthulhu!

Oh Great Cthulhu!

I have been an extremely sedulous devotee this year.

When the stars were right, I recruited [info]asalienapua as a new cultist (30 points). In September, I defiled the grave of that traitor, Lovecraft (90 points). In November, I rescued [info]chainmaile from being sacrificed (-200 points). In May, I stopped [info]piratesgoyarr from defiling Lovecraft's grave (-20 points). Yesterday, I visited my relatives in Innsmouth (100 points). In December, I sacrificed [info]_spacecoyote to Cthulhu (500 points).

In short, I have been very good (500 points) and deserve to be eaten first.


Your humble and obedient servant,
Amanushika


Submit your own plea to Cthulhu!
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Things that piss me off

So yeah, once again WE HAVE NO FUCKING HOT WATER! GAH! We haven't had hot water all day, all we have is barely tepid warm water. This didn't happen last year. I'm going to go and raise hell in housing monday, and tuesday, and wednesday, and every fucking day until they do something about it! For all the damn money we're paying we should be getting hot water at least. We pay for AC which we don't get, we pay for hot water which we don't get either. What. The. FUCK! All I want is damn hot water, that isn't that much to ask, we don't live in the dark ages. Watch them not do a thing about it either.

I'm stressed out as all hell too thanks to all the projects I have to do. This week I have to finish up painting 8 storyboard cells in high detail which is very time consuming. I've been working on them since I got home from my date tonight and I still have a ton of shit to do on them and I still haven't scanned the last lot. Those have to be done by monday so I can print them, monday is going to suck because I have a doctor's apointment, have to get stuff printed, as well as try and get the school to do something about our hot water problem, which they won't because they don't care.

By wednesday I have to get a level walkthrough written as well as get concept art scanned and tweaked for Washington's class. I have an psych exam on thursday.

I want these projects to get over with so we can clean up the apartment. I hate messes and I swear if I trip over, knock down, break, smash, run into, and step on one more peice of junk in the god damned apartment...I'm going to scream! I can't go anywhere without getting hung up on something. We've got projects out, stuff to pack up and put in the car as well as the normal stuff. I NEED ORDER DAMMIT! Order and hot water, is that too much to ask?!

So yeah, I'm going to go fume and snarl and be annoyed until this shit is over with.
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So tired

Well today I'm like a total zombie from taking my muscle relaxers for some serious pain. The only thing I can do is color..which it's good that I can at least do that. So right now I'm tired and blah...


Goin' to Oakland with the boyfriend tomorrow to randomly explore while he plays games with his pals. Got a Dr. Freeman appt. on monday which will also be pointless as I don't need to be constantly monitored by doctors anymore. I'm better dammit, I grew out of it just like Dr. K said and I don't need her going "now take these heavy duty mood controllers every day alright? I know what's best..." yeah whatever.

So many finals to do, gifts to paint and all that, I'm goin' insaner!


Oh yeah, and I can't get commissions either. This pisses me off.
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amanushika inu

Then I realised, hell he belongs to me!

Ok I was waiting for Dom today after class, sittin' out by the T Rex statue by school. I was gettin' kinda bored so I started people watching. NOthing much to see until I turned around towards the bridge and there comin' my way was the hottest damn studmuffin I had ever seen. I felt like such a letch starin' at the guy I'm like "damn look at those shoulders, and check out that business suit. Holy crap I'm oogling a Suit! I'm a perve...I wonder what's under that suit..." and then as the guy crossed the street I realized that it WAS Dom! HAH! I was oogling my own man!! That's just classic; I still kinda felt guilty for a minute but what can I say, the sight of a good lookin' man occasionaly makes my head turn. Luckily the guy who was giving me whiplash was mine. I'm the luckiest chick evar!

Note to self: send Dom's Mom a thank you note for being so great at picking out suits for her gorgeous son (seriously he looked like a Brooks Brother's model and you know how I am about that kind of style and the whole 'real honest to goodness man' look)

Only down side: it's hard to concentrate in your math class when all you're thinking about his your extremely sexy mate and the fact that they're just down the street.


Quote of the day:
Dave: I'm a firm believer that the higher you get, the better the view you know? (Talking about one of his sky cities for his game)
Ben: Heck yeah motha...ooooh yeah toke one up and see the sights baby
Washington: He's got a point
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Kick as AMVS

http://www.youtube.com/?v=aeH2dD6xUgQ Japanese ad for Ratchet and CLank
http://www.youtube.com/?v=moI86TIbfBE Inuyasha and Barbie Girl
http://www.youtube.com/?v=dDh_CbYNiuE Lets get Retarded - Inu Yasha AMV
http://www.youtube.com/?v=Dx-yxIPPx5g Inu yasha Southpark Crossover


and the best of the lot
http://www.youtube.com/?v=6R_P1KfczlM Totaly Commited with Inu Yasha. Just watch it. You'll thank me

http://www.youtube.com/?v=LEjxd7lqpIw well this one kicks ass too
http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=jy4oxupHyOQ&search=Full%20Metal%20Alchemist The Friendship Test